Hi `ya all.
Had the same problem with penetration up untill a few month back.
Met a special someone who just managed to break all my walls and inhibitions basically on our first officiall date.
We met a few times briefly and then 2 monthes later he just showed up at my work place and for a whole hour waited to ask me ot pretending meanwhile he needed something for his -now- newborn - future nefue.
I had this overwelming feeling just speaking to him over the phone. am an observant jewish who up untill I met him - was a "technically" 5 year old virgin who was very much into boys her whole life but had to wait for that guy that special guy who was sweet and special and I felt like I could trust him allmost complitally. We just fell into each other arms and I told him my fears so it took about 3 times untill I really have let go - I bled so much I think I`v scared him -It was indeed painfull but not as badly as I thought and the secret was that we were really attracted to one another and had this insane emotional connection - He just made me very much aroused with his fingers and was soooo patient - when I met him 4 the first time I was a 210% sure he was gay!!!!!!!!!! well he was`nt - seemed so innocent that beautifull sexy bastard lol - but he was such a GUY!!! he even swayed me over his back and carried me like a princess!!! I was hooked on him for month but because we are both liberal observant jews we felt bad so we decided to giveit a month and see if we are marriage matterial - as we both very spiriyual and want a family of our own very much. eventually he broke up with me but it was mutual I guess cause he was a poet and a dreamer and a worrior and a true intellectuall prince - but all I`m looking for is this very very simple guy who`d cuddle with me on the soafa after a hard day at work. He is devorced and lived with a much older and dead beautifull women for a while and broke a few hearts but I`m still inlove with him and trying very hard to pull away/He is also a gardner and he had me writing these amazing love songs. I know it sounds like a teenage dream but I`m a virgo and we are so judgemental we don`t let anyone in!!!!! One thing I`d like to add is that prior to meeting him accidentally - I took some belly dancing lessons which freed my inner sexuall Godess - Just saying - and I`m also suffering from a phobia from vomiting which I read is relevant since it involves fear or passing through narrow objects - am also insanely claustrophobic - so to all you virgins out there - don`t settle on someone you don`t love and - YES - wait untill you get married unless you`re 35 and feel like any minute now you`re about to die from not living!!!!!! Big hug Sorry it was long - had to tell you how I felt - am also terrified that God forbid something bad would happen to him since 2 guys I`v been inlove with - one my first kiss - one a few yars younger then me prince charming - have died - I`m scared they would draft him to the Israeli army with the war going in Gaza. Also since I`m religious I have my regrets but I also feel relifed and much much much more of a confident desirable woman :}
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Hi `ya all.
August 4, 2014 - 4:09pmHad the same problem with penetration up untill a few month back.
Met a special someone who just managed to break all my walls and inhibitions basically on our first officiall date.
We met a few times briefly and then 2 monthes later he just showed up at my work place and for a whole hour waited to ask me ot pretending meanwhile he needed something for his -now- newborn - future nefue.
I had this overwelming feeling just speaking to him over the phone. am an observant jewish who up untill I met him - was a "technically" 5 year old virgin who was very much into boys her whole life but had to wait for that guy that special guy who was sweet and special and I felt like I could trust him allmost complitally. We just fell into each other arms and I told him my fears so it took about 3 times untill I really have let go - I bled so much I think I`v scared him -It was indeed painfull but not as badly as I thought and the secret was that we were really attracted to one another and had this insane emotional connection - He just made me very much aroused with his fingers and was soooo patient - when I met him 4 the first time I was a 210% sure he was gay!!!!!!!!!! well he was`nt - seemed so innocent that beautifull sexy bastard lol - but he was such a GUY!!! he even swayed me over his back and carried me like a princess!!! I was hooked on him for month but because we are both liberal observant jews we felt bad so we decided to giveit a month and see if we are marriage matterial - as we both very spiriyual and want a family of our own very much. eventually he broke up with me but it was mutual I guess cause he was a poet and a dreamer and a worrior and a true intellectuall prince - but all I`m looking for is this very very simple guy who`d cuddle with me on the soafa after a hard day at work. He is devorced and lived with a much older and dead beautifull women for a while and broke a few hearts but I`m still inlove with him and trying very hard to pull away/He is also a gardner and he had me writing these amazing love songs. I know it sounds like a teenage dream but I`m a virgo and we are so judgemental we don`t let anyone in!!!!! One thing I`d like to add is that prior to meeting him accidentally - I took some belly dancing lessons which freed my inner sexuall Godess - Just saying - and I`m also suffering from a phobia from vomiting which I read is relevant since it involves fear or passing through narrow objects - am also insanely claustrophobic - so to all you virgins out there - don`t settle on someone you don`t love and - YES - wait untill you get married unless you`re 35 and feel like any minute now you`re about to die from not living!!!!!! Big hug Sorry it was long - had to tell you how I felt - am also terrified that God forbid something bad would happen to him since 2 guys I`v been inlove with - one my first kiss - one a few yars younger then me prince charming - have died - I`m scared they would draft him to the Israeli army with the war going in Gaza. Also since I`m religious I have my regrets but I also feel relifed and much much much more of a confident desirable woman :}
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