It gives me courage to know that other women have been going through the same thing as me! I thought it was only me. Being rejected sexually can break a woman down in ways that are unthinkable. Feb 2014 i started dating a guy that was 32 years old. A decade older than me. Our relationship was great at first, very passionate. We use to kiss each other passionately each time we spent together and he kept begging me to make love to me. I told him that i was a virgin and he told me that this fact made him respect and love me more. The very first we tried to have sex, he got an erection for two minutes and went down. He still tried to penetrate me but it kept coming off because first, he wasn't hard, second, i was a virgin.It's like he got dissapointed after seeing me naked, like it wasn't what he expected. i felt very sad but i thought maybe it was him, not me. A second time, same thing, he couldn't get an erection. It made me feel really bad because he was the very first and only guy that i finally accepted to give my body to. In all my pass relationship, I had been very strict about keeping my virginity. but despite that, i decided to keep going with because i didn't want to break up with for failing just twice. But About five times, we tried, same thing. Hekept telling it's because he drinks too much, it'ssomething that he controls, it's because he doesn't want to yet... I felt ashamed, unattractive, especiallybecause i was always insecure about having extremly small breast and a thin body. However , i could never state out loud and admit that he wasn't sexually attracted to me which was the truth. I broke up with him, november on my birthday. i have been dating a man that lovevery much since a month now. We haven't got the point of trying to havesex, he hasn't seen me naked. He tells meall the time that he wants to make love to me but wehaven't hadthe chance yet. i'm suffering because i'm very scared that once he sees me naked, the same thing is going to happen. I try to be honest with him and tell him i'm likely flat chested but i wear bras that make my breast look like normal size. He tells me he loves me for me, that's not all that counts. But i'mstill very afraid andanxious thinking that the same thing will happen, and i will once againg find myself in a relationship with no sexual life. i desire this man so much. i'm very attracted to him. Any advice?
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It gives me courage to know that other women have been going through the same thing as me! I thought it was only me. Being rejected sexually can break a woman down in ways that are unthinkable. Feb 2014 i started dating a guy that was 32 years old. A decade older than me. Our relationship was great at first, very passionate. We use to kiss each other passionately each time we spent together and he kept begging me to make love to me. I told him that i was a virgin and he told me that this fact made him respect and love me more. The very first we tried to have sex, he got an erection for two minutes and went down. He still tried to penetrate me but it kept coming off because first, he wasn't hard, second, i was a virgin.It's like he got dissapointed after seeing me naked, like it wasn't what he expected. i felt very sad but i thought maybe it was him, not me. A second time, same thing, he couldn't get an erection. It made me feel really bad because he was the very first and only guy that i finally accepted to give my body to. In all my pass relationship, I had been very strict about keeping my virginity. but despite that, i decided to keep going with because i didn't want to break up with for failing just twice. But About five times, we tried, same thing. Hekept telling it's because he drinks too much, it'ssomething that he controls, it's because he doesn't want to yet... I felt ashamed, unattractive, especiallybecause i was always insecure about having extremly small breast and a thin body. However , i could never state out loud and admit that he wasn't sexually attracted to me which was the truth. I broke up with him, november on my birthday. i have been dating a man that lovevery much since a month now. We haven't got the point of trying to havesex, he hasn't seen me naked. He tells meall the time that he wants to make love to me but wehaven't hadthe chance yet. i'm suffering because i'm very scared that once he sees me naked, the same thing is going to happen. I try to be honest with him and tell him i'm likely flat chested but i wear bras that make my breast look like normal size. He tells me he loves me for me, that's not all that counts. But i'mstill very afraid andanxious thinking that the same thing will happen, and i will once againg find myself in a relationship with no sexual life. i desire this man so much. i'm very attracted to him. Any advice?
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