I had a nurse over the phone to tell me the same thing you did about the medications and I told him what she said and He just said "Oh she doesnt know what she is talking about"...but this is about the 15 doctor I have seen (for different things) over the past 4 years...all the MD usually say is that it all in my head...that I fear the medications...Even on my bottle of clonazepam it says can cause fear or depression...I told him that but he just ignors me....I have seen differnt pyschiatrist and they all get frustrated with me cause they say if I cant take the anti-depressants there is not much they can do...well then I really feel alone and hopeless....
I did go to a therapist for a short time but because I am out on disability I couldnt afford it....I am 53 and now they have me on Medicare after 2 years of no insurance at all and they only pay 50 percent of mental health doctors...so I couldnt afford it and live and pay my bills also....
It seem such a shame that doctors make you feel like things are all your fault and if not they just wnat to push pills down your throat....my mother passed away in 1991 at 59 years old and my daddy told me she could never take medications....they did her the same way so I think its a genetic thing...at least my last psychiatrist admitted to that....he left town so I have a new pyschiatrist now....or she is a RN under a pyschiatrist...she was really nice and tried me on brand Zoloft to see if I could tolerate brand over generics but I still couldnt take it....I was only on 25mg a childs dose for 2 weeks and couldnt handle it any longer....I have tried anti-depressants twice around in the last 4 years and they just make me feel worse than I do without them...but then I feel horrible with nothing also...if that makes since....I have generalized anxiety disorder along with depression and the fibromyalgia and dizziness....
Its gotten so bad I dont want to ever leave home anymore and I dont ever see anyone much...I live alone and havent been with my family at holdiays and Christmas for the last 4 years now...it hurts so bad and all I do is cry...I just want to feel a little bit happy...I never seem to smile cause I am always so ill feeling and sick that I cant get past my symptoms....its a horrible life and I use to be so happy and bubbly and I dont know what went wrong but I am not the same person i use to be....
I am sorry i have dumped all this on you...I know you really dont have the answers either...no one seems to...in fact I have really just kinda give up with ever finding happiness again...I feel I have stuck here for so long I will always be this way....My head always feels like it has a vice grip around it and my vision is so blurrry all the time along with the stomach issues and pain from the fibromyalgia, it just seems endless...I hate to sound like a whinner cause I know in my heart I have got it better than alot of people and I am very grateful for that, but still I want to live not just exist...you know what I mean....
Well thankyou for listening to me...yall all have been so nice to me and at least I can vent here or feel like I can....I hope you have a nice weekend...thanks again....Karen
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I had a nurse over the phone to tell me the same thing you did about the medications and I told him what she said and He just said "Oh she doesnt know what she is talking about"...but this is about the 15 doctor I have seen (for different things) over the past 4 years...all the MD usually say is that it all in my head...that I fear the medications...Even on my bottle of clonazepam it says can cause fear or depression...I told him that but he just ignors me....I have seen differnt pyschiatrist and they all get frustrated with me cause they say if I cant take the anti-depressants there is not much they can do...well then I really feel alone and hopeless....
I did go to a therapist for a short time but because I am out on disability I couldnt afford it....I am 53 and now they have me on Medicare after 2 years of no insurance at all and they only pay 50 percent of mental health doctors...so I couldnt afford it and live and pay my bills also....
It seem such a shame that doctors make you feel like things are all your fault and if not they just wnat to push pills down your throat....my mother passed away in 1991 at 59 years old and my daddy told me she could never take medications....they did her the same way so I think its a genetic thing...at least my last psychiatrist admitted to that....he left town so I have a new pyschiatrist now....or she is a RN under a pyschiatrist...she was really nice and tried me on brand Zoloft to see if I could tolerate brand over generics but I still couldnt take it....I was only on 25mg a childs dose for 2 weeks and couldnt handle it any longer....I have tried anti-depressants twice around in the last 4 years and they just make me feel worse than I do without them...but then I feel horrible with nothing also...if that makes since....I have generalized anxiety disorder along with depression and the fibromyalgia and dizziness....
Its gotten so bad I dont want to ever leave home anymore and I dont ever see anyone much...I live alone and havent been with my family at holdiays and Christmas for the last 4 years now...it hurts so bad and all I do is cry...I just want to feel a little bit happy...I never seem to smile cause I am always so ill feeling and sick that I cant get past my symptoms....its a horrible life and I use to be so happy and bubbly and I dont know what went wrong but I am not the same person i use to be....
I am sorry i have dumped all this on you...I know you really dont have the answers either...no one seems to...in fact I have really just kinda give up with ever finding happiness again...I feel I have stuck here for so long I will always be this way....My head always feels like it has a vice grip around it and my vision is so blurrry all the time along with the stomach issues and pain from the fibromyalgia, it just seems endless...I hate to sound like a whinner cause I know in my heart I have got it better than alot of people and I am very grateful for that, but still I want to live not just exist...you know what I mean....
Well thankyou for listening to me...yall all have been so nice to me and at least I can vent here or feel like I can....I hope you have a nice weekend...thanks again....Karen
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