Hey guys!
So sorry it has taken me so long to respond to your comments. Thank you so much for everything that you said, I took them into huge consideration, and in-turn it has left me with a very difficult passed month. Literally the following day after my post, we broke up. I guess I had just simply had enough. Your comments made me want to be strong and walk completely away from it, which I did. It has been the most difficult last few weeks I have ever encountered in my life though...and I'd like to see what your thoughts are on my current situation. After breaking up, we were both quite content with the situation because we both realized how unhappy we had both been for so long, and how we should have broke it off months ago. The break up was really rough, but actually ended in an all nighter, about 6 hour conversation between the two of us. We got to talking about everything that had happened to us and began to say things that we never would before, actually TALKED to each other for once in our relationship, and started to really see who each of us really are. It was an extremely emotional night, as we started to realize that if we had just been honest with each other, and said all those words before, that we probably could have created something amazing.. So here is my current situation: we have to live together until the end of July, as he has paid his rent, and has no where else to go until August 1st, and has a steady good paying job. After breaking up, I went to my parents for over a week to just get away from it all. The time apart however, made things get interesting. Now I know that everyone will say that men don't change, but this is what happened. He began calling me, saying that he missed me and just wanted to talk, which I had wished for our entire relationship whenever I was away - never happened before. Then he asked if he could take me out on a date, start over, as if it was our first date, which we continued to discuss that neither of us wanted to get back together, but just maybe see what happens. I did so, in wanting to keep peace while we are stuck living together. Ever since... he has been amazing!! He does everything I ever asked for before and more. I feel like he is a different person, and that we are so different together in a good way. The porn has completely stopped, he offers to cook me dinner, he rubs my back, etc.. We are not back together, as I did not want to fall back into the downward spiral that we were once in...but now I am stuck :( We have decided that things will officially break off as off July 31st when he moves out, and we will say good-bye for good, but now I don't know what to do if either A- that day comes and I want more and he doesn't, or if I should even want more in the first place, or B- He wants to get back together. I am afraid of every situation and every outcome because I don't know what to do with whatever way the table turns. I feel like right now we are so happy together because there is no pressure of "boyfriend/girlfriend". Every day things seem to get better and better between us, and I am just falling for him over and over again. I have always loved him, more than I ever thought possible, but I just don't know what to do now. Any thoughts or comments on this mess would be greatly appreciated, as everything you all said before really described my life to a "T" and made me feel so much better. I realize that I have gotten myself into this mess, but should I give him a second chance if he wants it? or should I even risk getting my heart broken again?....
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Hey guys!
July 2, 2010 - 4:23pmSo sorry it has taken me so long to respond to your comments. Thank you so much for everything that you said, I took them into huge consideration, and in-turn it has left me with a very difficult passed month. Literally the following day after my post, we broke up. I guess I had just simply had enough. Your comments made me want to be strong and walk completely away from it, which I did. It has been the most difficult last few weeks I have ever encountered in my life though...and I'd like to see what your thoughts are on my current situation. After breaking up, we were both quite content with the situation because we both realized how unhappy we had both been for so long, and how we should have broke it off months ago. The break up was really rough, but actually ended in an all nighter, about 6 hour conversation between the two of us. We got to talking about everything that had happened to us and began to say things that we never would before, actually TALKED to each other for once in our relationship, and started to really see who each of us really are. It was an extremely emotional night, as we started to realize that if we had just been honest with each other, and said all those words before, that we probably could have created something amazing.. So here is my current situation: we have to live together until the end of July, as he has paid his rent, and has no where else to go until August 1st, and has a steady good paying job. After breaking up, I went to my parents for over a week to just get away from it all. The time apart however, made things get interesting. Now I know that everyone will say that men don't change, but this is what happened. He began calling me, saying that he missed me and just wanted to talk, which I had wished for our entire relationship whenever I was away - never happened before. Then he asked if he could take me out on a date, start over, as if it was our first date, which we continued to discuss that neither of us wanted to get back together, but just maybe see what happens. I did so, in wanting to keep peace while we are stuck living together. Ever since... he has been amazing!! He does everything I ever asked for before and more. I feel like he is a different person, and that we are so different together in a good way. The porn has completely stopped, he offers to cook me dinner, he rubs my back, etc.. We are not back together, as I did not want to fall back into the downward spiral that we were once in...but now I am stuck :( We have decided that things will officially break off as off July 31st when he moves out, and we will say good-bye for good, but now I don't know what to do if either A- that day comes and I want more and he doesn't, or if I should even want more in the first place, or B- He wants to get back together. I am afraid of every situation and every outcome because I don't know what to do with whatever way the table turns. I feel like right now we are so happy together because there is no pressure of "boyfriend/girlfriend". Every day things seem to get better and better between us, and I am just falling for him over and over again. I have always loved him, more than I ever thought possible, but I just don't know what to do now. Any thoughts or comments on this mess would be greatly appreciated, as everything you all said before really described my life to a "T" and made me feel so much better. I realize that I have gotten myself into this mess, but should I give him a second chance if he wants it? or should I even risk getting my heart broken again?....
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