Hi Sammybear,
My name is Mary and I lost my mom to cancer almost 4 years ago now. She got sick my freshman year of college when I was only 17. My 18th birthday was in December and they still didn't know what was wrong. By February they discovered it was a brain tumor and she began chemo and radiation. I decided after my midterms to come home and help care for her. She passed away as the doctor predicted within 6 months. Her deterioration was horrific to watch and most of it for me almost feels like I have blocked it out from my memory. My mom was my best friend my whole life. I was the youngest and the only girl. Growing up we were extremely close I was home schooled throughout most of high school in fact.
Leaving for school was such a huge deal and pretty difficult for me.. I had no idea what was coming for me next.
I planned to go back to school but continued putting it off and got involved in a serious relationship soon after with a guy that was terrible for me. It was my first serious relationship and filled a big void in my life, but was very much a temporary band aid.
I had a close group of friends and family that all loved me very much, but I had a lot of anger and grief and confusion going on and felt very alone. My Mom had always been the rock of the family and kept everything together. From making sure we had our fafsa in on time to making sure we had our dentist appointment. My dad was never very involved and actually has a lot of emotional and social issues that we've always known about and kind of dealt with. After my mom passed away he really lost it and wasn't able to handle his own life, let alone act as any kind of a parent. Our house was foreclosed upon and i moved in with my boyfriend. My oldest brother went to live with my Grandma and my other brother was a senior in college so he stayed on campus.
The following year I didn't feel like I was ready to go back to school and decided to take a year off. Now four years later.. I really wish I had continued with school. Only a few months ago was I able to finally able to leave the emotionally and physically abusive relationship I got wrapped up into and stuck in for far too long.
It's been a rough time, but I am staying positive. I hope you do stay in school and stay focused on what's important in life. Surround yourself with people who really do care for you. Grief is a really horrible thing to go through and it takes a long time to feel better, but avoiding the pain will only hurt you more in the long run.
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Hi Sammybear,
My name is Mary and I lost my mom to cancer almost 4 years ago now. She got sick my freshman year of college when I was only 17. My 18th birthday was in December and they still didn't know what was wrong. By February they discovered it was a brain tumor and she began chemo and radiation. I decided after my midterms to come home and help care for her. She passed away as the doctor predicted within 6 months. Her deterioration was horrific to watch and most of it for me almost feels like I have blocked it out from my memory. My mom was my best friend my whole life. I was the youngest and the only girl. Growing up we were extremely close I was home schooled throughout most of high school in fact.
Leaving for school was such a huge deal and pretty difficult for me.. I had no idea what was coming for me next.
I planned to go back to school but continued putting it off and got involved in a serious relationship soon after with a guy that was terrible for me. It was my first serious relationship and filled a big void in my life, but was very much a temporary band aid.
I had a close group of friends and family that all loved me very much, but I had a lot of anger and grief and confusion going on and felt very alone. My Mom had always been the rock of the family and kept everything together. From making sure we had our fafsa in on time to making sure we had our dentist appointment. My dad was never very involved and actually has a lot of emotional and social issues that we've always known about and kind of dealt with. After my mom passed away he really lost it and wasn't able to handle his own life, let alone act as any kind of a parent. Our house was foreclosed upon and i moved in with my boyfriend. My oldest brother went to live with my Grandma and my other brother was a senior in college so he stayed on campus.
The following year I didn't feel like I was ready to go back to school and decided to take a year off. Now four years later.. I really wish I had continued with school. Only a few months ago was I able to finally able to leave the emotionally and physically abusive relationship I got wrapped up into and stuck in for far too long.
It's been a rough time, but I am staying positive. I hope you do stay in school and stay focused on what's important in life. Surround yourself with people who really do care for you. Grief is a really horrible thing to go through and it takes a long time to feel better, but avoiding the pain will only hurt you more in the long run.
I hope you are having a good day, girl.
March 2, 2011 - 11:23pmThis Comment
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