My boyfriend and i had a lot of sex the first week we met,after that it slowly became nothing. We are now a year in our relationship.And it has been months since my man and me have had sex. I really believe it is god punishing me.Let me explain... i use to be a athiest,and during this time i was more "bad" i guess is the word. I was a pornstar in l.a for 4 years,i became pretty well known at the time. Now i am a nurse and living a completely different life. I am now very religious and my man won't have sex with me. I have won awards for my "skills" and many men have watched my work. If i added up all my views i would say over a million people or more have watched my movies. I feel very VERY bad honestly for the women that say porn ruined their relationship,because i would never want to be the cause of that.I since then have kept up with my looks,i am in great shape. Yet my man will not have sex with me.Many times i feel disgusting and ugly unwanted and unloved. There were many times i cryed in front of him and to myself at night. I am a faithful women,and have never cheated on him. He gives every excuse to not have sex with me. And i really don't think it has anything to do with my past. I also have went through his phone many times and never saw that he was cheating on me. Honestly the only thing i question is his sexuality. That is the only thing left i haven't ruled out. He does not "act" gay. But i will say the ONLY time he does want sex,he wants it in my ass. I also saw he was following a known tranny on instagram. Not sure if he knew it was one,because she very much looks like a girl,her name is kimber james. All my ex boyfriends could not keep there hands off of me. So ladies you may not be the problem,it could be him!!!!I really honestly believe a guy has to be gay or cheating to not want to have sex witht the women he loves. My man wont even have sex with me with the lights on or off.As much as i love him i really think it could be the end,because i got into porn at the time for a reason,i had a sexual addiction and needed sex atleast 3 times a day. I still have very high sex drive. Last night we got in a fight,i told him i didn't get in a relationship to be his roommate or friend,i want to be his lover. He begged for me to stay.The worst part about all this is i just turned 30,being single at 30 is just horrible,for where i live. I live in the midwest and everyone here has kids and is married between ages 22-25. I pray for everyone finds true happiness and gets that love they need and deserve.
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My boyfriend and i had a lot of sex the first week we met,after that it slowly became nothing. We are now a year in our relationship.And it has been months since my man and me have had sex. I really believe it is god punishing me.Let me explain... i use to be a athiest,and during this time i was more "bad" i guess is the word. I was a pornstar in l.a for 4 years,i became pretty well known at the time. Now i am a nurse and living a completely different life. I am now very religious and my man won't have sex with me. I have won awards for my "skills" and many men have watched my work. If i added up all my views i would say over a million people or more have watched my movies. I feel very VERY bad honestly for the women that say porn ruined their relationship,because i would never want to be the cause of that.I since then have kept up with my looks,i am in great shape. Yet my man will not have sex with me.Many times i feel disgusting and ugly unwanted and unloved. There were many times i cryed in front of him and to myself at night. I am a faithful women,and have never cheated on him. He gives every excuse to not have sex with me. And i really don't think it has anything to do with my past. I also have went through his phone many times and never saw that he was cheating on me. Honestly the only thing i question is his sexuality. That is the only thing left i haven't ruled out. He does not "act" gay. But i will say the ONLY time he does want sex,he wants it in my ass. I also saw he was following a known tranny on instagram. Not sure if he knew it was one,because she very much looks like a girl,her name is kimber james. All my ex boyfriends could not keep there hands off of me. So ladies you may not be the problem,it could be him!!!!I really honestly believe a guy has to be gay or cheating to not want to have sex witht the women he loves. My man wont even have sex with me with the lights on or off.As much as i love him i really think it could be the end,because i got into porn at the time for a reason,i had a sexual addiction and needed sex atleast 3 times a day. I still have very high sex drive. Last night we got in a fight,i told him i didn't get in a relationship to be his roommate or friend,i want to be his lover. He begged for me to stay.The worst part about all this is i just turned 30,being single at 30 is just horrible,for where i live. I live in the midwest and everyone here has kids and is married between ages 22-25. I pray for everyone finds true happiness and gets that love they need and deserve.
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