I feel like my life is thrash and I have change to worst what can I do to be better?

By Anonymous November 27, 2016 - 5:13pm

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I don’t usually like to say how I feel because I feel stupid and pathetic but why not one more time… I am always ignoring reality life feels pointless beside I feel like thrash like I have wasted my entire life now I hate myself I have become someone I don’t want to be I lie, steal, hurt animals and I don’t care about what happens I feel like I can never change what I have become and I cannot deal whit it I can’t forgive myself…I wish I could kill myself but I don’t dare…many good people have try to help me but It never works I always end feeling like trash….existing is stressful and I can never do anything good…I feel so empty unmotivated pathetic I just don’t want to exist anymore I have try so many stuff to find happiness but nothing works all I can do to be sane is to avoid reality, pretend I am happy and think that soon enough I will die.

And of course, I try going to a psychologist but it couldn’t help me…and they are more things bothering me but I don’t want to write a book if you know what I mean.
What you think guys is there is anything that could help me or I am just doom to be in this spiral of sadness and emptiness?
I wish everything could be like high school were I was young, happy and have tons of friends...