As you can see from my previous questions and comments, my relationship isn't right. He isn't 'the one' , we have nothing in common,we argue,he annoys me,i annoy him, we fight, we split up, we cry then get back together and inbetween those bad times we really love each other.But he's saying that his feelings aren't as strong anymore and I am convinced that even though I love him alot, mine aren't as strong as they used to be. We know we shouldn't be together so why do we find it so hard to break away for good? Why is it,that the main thing that comes to my mind when I picture us apart is him oneday finding another girl, loving her ,looking at the her,kissing her etc the way he used to with me?Why do I torture myself with these images..they kill me and I am sure if we split up for good..the way I am quite obsessive and self destructive,I will want to follow him, check up on him etc...:( and I know I will get depressed,possibly go back to self harming, drinking more, attempt overdoses.I feel like I couldnt go through the pain of splitting up with him..I feel like I will never find the man who will love me for everything I am and therefore we will be able to stay together.
I am lost,hurt and confused.I am 23..this is my first real relationship,its been three years :(
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