For for past 3 years, I feel my life has gotten totally out of control. My husband almost died twice in '08, my grand daughter came to live with us and brought all her baggage with her, emotional baggage since being rejected by her father, our son. My oldest brother passed away from a massive stroke a month before my grand daughter moved in so I felt I never had a chance to grieve for him since being thrown into mommy mode. I had generalized anxiety before all these things happened but since, I can't relax, always feel on edge and now get palpitations and have high blood pressure. I get so tired. I wake up tired dreading to face another day of dealing with feeling on edge. My birthday is tomorrow and I don't even care. What em I to do. I can't go on living like this, afraid to drive alone and yet afraid to go off on a trip because I won't be home. I am hopeless!
Neverending torment!
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Hi neverending,
I can relate to your feeling when you said, "I am afraid to drive alone, yet afraid to go on a trip because I won't be home". I had this same excessive stress and anxiety many years ago, and the one thing that helped me was to talk to a Psychologist. I had friends and my husband who were supportive, but I didn't feel that they ever understood the depth of my fears and stress until I spoke to a "third party".
As Pat said, please find a psychologist to talk with whom you trust and have a good rapport, and if you feel you are in crisis now, do not hesitate to call the Suicide Prevention Hotline...they are there to talk with you no matter what your stressors are. We are here to talk more as well, but it is important for you to find a counselor. Can you call first thing tomorrow, make an appointment, and let us know how you are doing?
September 14, 2010 - 7:24pmThis Comment
Neverending - I'm sorry to read about what you've been experiencing and hear how you're feeling. You sound like you're in crisis, and it would help to talk to someone - the sooner the better. I'm going to suggest you call one of the trained counselors at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). This is a free, 24-hour hotline available to anyone in crisis or emotional distress. Your call will be routed to the nearest crisis center to you.
* Call for yourself or someone you care about
* Free and confidential
* A network of more than 140 crisis centers nationwide
* Available 24/7
Please call - and get some support right away. We all have times that are extremely trying. This service can help you immediately, and also help you with resources for longer-term solutions.
Let me know what you do, and take care.
September 14, 2010 - 6:38pmPat
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