One of my most favorite people in the family just died. My paternal uncle, who had been there for me all my life, passed away just three days ago. He had a massive heart attack. The only compensation in this ordeal is that he died amongst his loved ones and with a smile on his face. He left so many good memories behind, not only for me but everyone in the family. His grandkids, nieces, nephews, cousins, brothers, sisters and friends will remember him for his friendly and loving gestures towards them over the years. I can convince myself that he died of old age and peacefully as much as I want to. But the fact remains that he was only 73 and he had been a diabetic and a heart patient for over 40 years.
Death in the family can be hard to deal with because every time someone dies from a health a problem it serves as a reality check on our own physical condition. Sometimes I think being in the medical field is a curse as much as it is a blessing. This is because, as health care professionals, we see so many cases of hard core health issues arising with patients and whenever we get sick we attribute some of those to ourselves. The more we dig into our own sickness, even if it is a common cold, the more we find out minute details about it. Sometimes I hate doing Google searches for there is so much information so many different people put on their websites it is mind boggling. We read and we read deep into the subject and we worry about certain illnesses coming to us. That doesn't give us any peace of mind. Especially when we have some existing sickness. In my case heart disease and diabetes are prevalent in my family. Being a diabetic and heart patient myself doesn't give me a break from fearing the worst. As much as I tell myself about my own benefits of reading information that could help me out in managing my own health conditions and as well as my family, it is overwhelming to me reading so much that's out there.
Death is inevitable. Everyone will have to go through it eventually, some early in their lives and some very much later. I can't imagine someone saying, "okay, I had enough of this life so I am ready to go.