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Hope everyone is doing well.

By December 21, 2010 - 2:50am

My name is Kait. I'm 22 and live with bipolar II and severe anxiety disorder.

Lately, I have had increased anxiety, insomnia, and more mania than usual. It feels awkward and annoying =/

I have many good and bad days. I am considered a rapid cycler and it can be tough sometimes. I worry about my future a lot. I have attempted college classes and work and it has resulted in failure most times. It's so frustrating..

I hope everyone is doing well and trying to enjoy the holidays as much as possible. =)

By HERWriter Guide October 1, 2011 - 6:14am


Thanks so much for your post. I'm not happy that you have bipolar disorder but it's good that you have a proper diagnosis so that you can take it from here. It's amazing how people progress, once they know what's wrong.

You are right - it's a start - but it's a good start and I hope you stay with us so that we can talk more!


October 1, 2011 - 6:14am
By September 27, 2011 - 7:46pm

My original diagnosis was severe depression with psychotic features, PTSD, and anxiety. Today it was changed to Bi Polar disorder. It makes sense because my counselor did it a few weeks ago. She noticed some days I would come in on top of the world and some days could not find a reason to breath. It is amazing when things make sense and looking back you see the patterns.. many more downs than ups for me but I have the answer...it is a start..

September 27, 2011 - 7:46pm
By April 26, 2011 - 11:58am

Here's a blog post I did about my experience with ECT. Let me know if you have any other questions. http://realityhideseek.blogspot.com/2011/04/i-want-my-brain-back.html


April 26, 2011 - 11:58am
By HERWriter Guide April 26, 2011 - 10:28am

Hi Sheri

Thanks for your post!

I'm really curious about ECT - can you tell us a little more about it - how you felt during and after? How it was done?


April 26, 2011 - 10:28am
By April 18, 2011 - 4:56am

I'm very fortunate that I've finally found an antidepressant that works, Nardil. Unfortunately the manufacturer just did something very odd - declassified the generic so now I have to pay more for it, but it's worth it. I had been suffering from a debilitating depressive state for longer than I can remember. In January I had ECT, I think it helped some, but it's hard to tell. It left me very flat, confused and with a lot of memory loss. But now, whether it's just the meds or a combination of both I'm feeling great (not manic). I also do something called Healing Touch which is very relaxing and centering.

April 18, 2011 - 4:56am
By March 23, 2011 - 7:16am

Thank you so much for your concern and kind words. I consider myself to be a strong individual, but everybody needs help every now and again. I hope everyone coping with this condition is getting the help the need and deserve, and I will look forward to communicating with all of you.

March 23, 2011 - 7:16am
By HERWriter Guide March 20, 2011 - 5:13pm

Roxy, that's why we're here and we'll always be here for support.

Sometimes it's easier to talk to people you don't really "know" as opposed to talking directly with friends of family where things become a little too personal.

Keep talking with us and we'll support you; I know times can be really difficult for you. If you'd like help finding a confidential support group in your area, let us know!


March 20, 2011 - 5:13pm
By March 18, 2011 - 1:01pm

My family lives close, but I have always done things on my own. I don't know if it's pride or what, but my family doesn't know half of what has gone on with me in the past 10 years. They care about me, but I manage to hide most things from them. I guess I don't want to be a burden, or the daughter that failed. I do have a boyfriend that has lived with me for a year now. He is a wonderful male role model, and he wants to be their father. He pitch's in with taking care of the girls and the house. I am so used to taking care of everything, that I really don't feel like I need to much help. I am also stubborn I guess. My boyfriend has truely helped my little broken family become a whole and loving family, and I will never take that for granted. He is a rare breed of man. There arn't many men who would take on the role and responsibilty so willingly. He asked to do all this, I never once asked him to do anything. The only problem we have is our mental disorders. We all seem to have the same stuff going on. He has ADHD, Bi- Polar, and depression as well. You can imagine what we can go through at times. The good thing is, is that we know how each other is feeling, and why it is happening. People in relationships that haven't experienced these types of disorders don't usually grasp what is going on inside the other's head. That can cause a lot of problems. We all are doing very well despite everything going on. I do appreciate your concern, and advise on the matter. I don't have any friends to talk to about this. People usually don't understand why I need to be alone sometimes, and they tend to get offended. Thank you for communicating with me.

March 18, 2011 - 1:01pm
By HERWriter Guide March 18, 2011 - 9:39am

Hi again Roxygirl

Thanks for that update. It seems you're doing everything you can to get your kids help! Most (good) doctors will really listen to the parents of children who are exhibiting troubled behaviors and you seem to be very astute and a good observer of her actions which will be instrumental in getting her help so well done.

Your life as a mother (and person) must be incredibly difficult at times - do you have some support yourself, for when things get to be too much?

March 18, 2011 - 9:39am
By March 18, 2011 - 5:32am

Thanks for your comment. She has been diagnosed with ADHD, as well as her sister. Her current therapist and case worker thought she might be bipolar, and are looking into it. I wasn't even aware, and actually skeptical that I had it until after missing a few doses of my medication. I can see a difference between the symptoms of her ADHD symptoms and her other episodes. She has extremes of both worlds, but I can see how ADHD can have the same symptoms. Hyperactivity with ADHD is different then her hyperactivity. It is hard to explain. My other daughter has extreme hyperactivity, but she is aware of what she is saying, and it makes sense. When my daughter in question is in that state, most of what she says makes no sense, and she is not aware of what is going on most of the time. She is so uncontrollable (shes not bad, just all over the place doing crazy things) and physically strong in that state, but when she comes down, her strength seems to also come down. Half the time, she can't even recall what she was talking about, and her thoughts were very scattered. Trust me, I don't want to diagnose her with anything, but I can't rule it out completely. I monitor her closely without letting her know I am. The depression part is whats worrying me the most, and her other sister does not exibit any signs of it. I don't look at my kids as a diagnosis, I look at them as kind, loving, beautiful miracles, I just want them to experience life with as much happiness as possible. I will keep you updated on any diagnosis or rule out of diagnosis that occurs, and again, I appreciate your input.

March 18, 2011 - 5:32am

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