I know I'm not perfect but I have been a good enough wife to my husband. We have been together for 6 years and married for almost 3.He takes care of me financially but I feel like there isn't genuine love there. He has cheated on me basically the whole time weve been together smh. recently I ran into a convo he was having with his ex where they basically agreed to have sex. She has a child with him.She has never liked me, and I have tried being cordial with her.But this one time I lost my cool and cussed that bitch out! and when he found out that I knew what was going on he flipped it all on me and said I went looking for something so I found it smh. The hoe had the nerve to tell me that he married me by default and how he keeps fcking her and how if I was a good wife then he wouldn't be after her. Plus things that he has said about me. He acts like im his enemy or something. Ive cried for a long time,I have left him 3 times in the past and I feel like when I leave this time its for good. He makes me turn into an angry person and all this infront of our child. I don't get how he claims to love me but has not one ounce 0f respect. He even has other females texting him good morning but I cant even get asked how my day was at work. They miss you when you're gone!!! I just wish he would grow up,like me and love me genuinely. I feel like he never gave us a chance cause he wants to have everyone at the same time. Lately I just play the good wife and act like nothing ever happened. Whenever I try to talk to him he gets upset and starts yelling smh. Ive done nothing but love him and respect him. Up to to this day he never apologized to me. Let it had been me and I would have been every name in the damn book. Im at the point where I just give up!!! I love myself way too much for someone to dog me this way knowing that I never deserved it