November 11, 2010 - 6:22am
I really don't know what to do or how to even think anymore and desperate for advice. I am (was) a self confident girl. Have my own business, very sporty, tall, blonde, good looking. I've even been called the 'Trophey' Girlfriend! I have been with my boyfriend now for 2 years. We moved in together at the beginning of this year. Last year I caught him on internet dating sites and active with them. After a week of split up we got back together as he told me someone had stolen his internet identity and it wasn't him. (yeh right!) So we got back together of which since then I have found him on worldwidewives.com, adultfriendfinder.com, maritalfling.com - the list goes on. I confronted him about these again and told him to not question my intelligence and that if I ever catch him on these sites again I am off. This is only just one of the issues though as our sex life is pretty non existent. He doesn't have a sex drive with me at all however I have now found the largest porn collection and have now found out from the BT bill that whilst I was out working he was lying at home watching adult porn tv!!! The bt bill doesn't lie!!!! He tells me 50 times a day he loves me and that I am his angel however he comes no where near me - I mean no where!!! I feel as though I have turned into his house mate and the person that funds a lovely life style. I have talked to him on many occasion about our huge lack of sex life of which he will put out and then that is it. I am now monitoring it and IF I can get him to have sex he becomes a dot on my sasco wall planner at work!!! But other than this we have the perfect little life together. Just a life of NO sex and one that he wants to constantly look at it - Just not take part. I now have the lowest self esteem, no confidence and feel inept. Why? Help? Getting to the end now of what is a very short tether.