April 26, 2013 - 4:46am
When I was 13 years old I had a very bad infection which caused my inner ear to perferate, soon after the inner ear perferation I constantly heard ringing in the inner ear I remember it would keep me awake most ot the night. I missed out on alot of schooling in my first year of High Schoolthat when I got well enough to attend School again the Principal had no choice but to keep me down to repeat my first year of High School again. Years have now gone by and the ringing of the inner ear did not cease it kept going. After all of my children were born I decided to do something about it because it was compremising my hearing and not allowing me to hear properly. I made an appointment with Audiology for hearing test the finding was that I needed hearing aids in both my ears. I don't like to wear them because it seems to add to the condition. I hear numerous sounds on and off there is one particular sound that is continuous in the right ear first it is very faint and I am unable to hear it then it gets louder and louder like a heart beat going boom boom boom continuosly. I believe that it is part of the reason why I get so annoyed very easy and why I cannot tollerate being angry for too long to me it is like a fighting war between me and the Tinnitus. We have planes that fly over our place little planes, and because I have Tinnitu it does not help with my condition it seems to add to it. And now I have been told that I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, I believe due to the Tinnitus and due to the Premature Labour but that is a different story were talking about Tinnitus. This writing really helps me. It becomes an out let for me to be able to express myself. When I don't I have notisced that my personsality changes. I am learning to take notice when this occurs. Sometimes I feel this shouldn't be my outlet and I start to feel sorry for myself and begin to feel sad. Then I pick up again when I listen to music it helps to soothe me. I believe that music is the best medicine apart from laughing because Laughing is the best as well. Who can sit watching a comedy series or movie and not laugh even a sad person will adventually laugh at a funny scene in the movie or series and doctors say that the more we laugh the quicker we can recover and the reason for this is because of the cancer patient whom might be in need of a bit of laughter in there stability to get well.