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Struggling With the Scale and Losing the Baby Weight

 
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I always weigh myself in the morning before I eat or drink anything and immediately after peeing. I look down at the square object that is about to set my mood for the day. Okay, tap the middle. Wait for the EEEEEE, then 0.00. Now step on lightly. I look straight ahead. Think light. Think thin. Okay, now look down! Wait, this must be wrong.

Of course, what was I THINKING?? I take off my tank top and pajama pants. I step back on the scale, naked this time. The number is the same. Seriously? My clothes don’t weigh anything!? Great. How many times this week did I treat myself to ice cream? Well, looks like it is time to get back on the healthy eating wagon.

I put my clothes back on and get ready to start the day. Today is the first day that I am going to be really disciplined about eating. That’s right. No processed food. No eating out. No sugar. Only healthy, low-calorie food. I am going to be so good about it that I will probably lose five pounds before the week is over. I am motivated all the way to the kitchen.

Unfortunately, my kids ask me to make Belgium waffles with strawberries and my mouth starts to water as my stomach growls. Now my struggle is not only with the scale but also with my willpower.

I believe that something happens to a woman’s body after having kids. After that first baby, even with the weight gone, things shift. I am not using it as an excuse. It just seemed to be easier for me to lose the weight after my first and second baby than it is with my third. I wonder if that is true for other women?

Maybe it is more difficult for me to find the time to exercise with three small kids. But that still doesn’t explain why my wonderful nursing breasts have lost some of their volume and what is missing from my chest seems to have moved to around my waist, the dreaded “Mommy Middle.”

Maybe I’m a little sensitive. Like when people tell me, “You look good for having three kids!” Oh, thanks. What kind of backhanded compliment is that? If I didn’t have three kids, would you consider me a fatty? How I get self-conscious when my 4-year-old bounces his LEGO figurine off my stomach and makes an exaggerated BOINGGG sound. Or how I burst into tears the day that my son innocently asked me, “Have you called Jenny yet?” (Note to self, lose weight AND cut down on television for the the kids.) Yes, I am probably a bit too sensitive.

I admit that my eating habits are not what they should be but they are improving. I used to fall into the constant pattern of being too busy to eat. As a result, I would find myself on-the-go and STARVING. I would then resort to eating whatever I could find in my diaper bag or car: Cheetos, Teddy Grahams, Spiderman fruit snacks. Something, ANYTHING, that would help me to even out from the coffee that I had that morning on an empty stomach.

Now I try to remember to always have fruit, vegetables or raw almonds available for when I need them. I take time to eat meals. I am hopeful that by improving my eating habits and staying active, I will win the struggle with the scale.

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Hi Susan! It's mrspug!! I love it when I have time to read all of your articles I have not had an opportunity to read!! You crack me up - "Have you called Jenny yet??" I laughed OUT LOUD at that one!! Sounds like my kids - so innocent yet gut wrenching at the same time!! Thank you for being such a talented writer - you have made my day!! Don't be so hard on yourself. When all is said and done those boys will remember a mommy who was warm and soft who spent quality time with them and gave great hugs!!

August 31, 2009 - 10:46am
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Thanks for your comments! It is nice to hear from you. Glad you enjoyed it!

August 31, 2009 - 11:13am
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Anonymous

Great article, your writting is so relateable...I've been there and planning ahead and sticking with your healthy eating will get you where you want to be :)

July 30, 2009 - 12:20pm
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