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Emotional Abuse: The Invisible Marriage Killer

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Sources: www.focusonthefamily.com; “The Silent Killer of Christian Marriages” by Amy Wildman White (http://www.safeplaceministries.com/pdf/The Silent Killer of Christian Marriages.pdf)

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Every day, I ask God to forgive me for not waiting for my true soul mate. I met my husband at the age of 27yr. and am now 38yr. with four years of marriage. I am a Registered Nurse and he is a security guard which asked me to loan him money when we dated, so he can go to school for nursing. Immediately after marriage he began to use hurtful words like “your now old and no one want you anymore” and do many hurtful things. He made me sit in the back seat in the car so that his friend can sit up front. Opened doors for everyone but me. I told him this was wrong he said, "fine he won't do it again" but he did. He also immediately dropped out of college and brought three cars for himself, a Mercedes, a Lexus, and a truck. I am Christian and have been told that one should remain married unless there is abuse or under certain conditions cheating. About two years ago he made me give up my seat in a public place for a girl in her twenties. She actually laughed at me for this and that may be the moment I began to be extremely disgusted and lose any love for him. I told him that I will not file for a divorce since I am Christian but that I wanted to live separate from him because I can no longer stand the site of him. He cried hard and swore he would change. He is now a lot better, but I told him that I have fallen out of love with him and now see him differently. He now does things like open doors for me and go to church with me. The one important thing I have not mentioned is that we have only been through foreplay all the years we known each other. He said he is too scared that he will hurt me with penetrating sex. My mom swears that I am messed up in the head by now and that he is probably cheating and gay. Every day, I have prayed that God separate us somehow or help me to actually want him. I know something is wrong with me, but I haven't brought myself to the point of looking for a counselor. I need help.

December 13, 2017 - 12:18am
EmpowHER Guest

I have been emotionally abused for so long. I contemplated suicide around year 7. I decided to get therapy because I was so scared for me. While I am better now and out if a crisis state. The relationship continues to deteriorate because I have become detached in order to survive. I also feel as thought I have to remain closed off to a degree emotionally out of self preservation. Now I am concerned for my spirituality that I am done how being unforgiving. He does not get it and refuses to get help. When I bring up divorce he gets irate. Not to he too is miserable as I no longer feel compelled to have sex with him. I explained how I understood his need and it was based on That need that I continued to have sex. He indicated that he did not want me to if I did not really want it. So I stopped; my giving it myself to satisfy his need was not appreciated. So I simply stopped. Its not that I don't care about him I simply have no desire to be intimate with him nor will I be responsible for his feelings. I feel stuck ....year 18 on the way. How do couples last 40 and 50 years. I am sure some real hurt occurs in every marriage. I feel like something is wrong with me. I don't know what to do with the years of abuse in order to act like it never happened. He still tries to manipulate me by making me feel bad for not having sex: distant... little or no conversation, hurtful or insulting text messages. He actually said he acts that way do.I will know how much it impacts him because it does not seem to bother me. I said so you are trying to.manipulate me? He said no awkwardly. This behavior still continues today after he moved out of our bedroom. His rationale for moving out of the bedroom was because he wanted me to ask him not to. I don't know how to go forward or how to get out.

December 5, 2017 - 12:15am
EmpowHER Guest

I’ve been verbally abused in my marriage for years and the last few years my husband experienced 3 heart attacks and he is a high risk cardiac patient. This has brought me to my knees as I’ve cried out to God and shared w others but I try to live my life to the fullest. I stay with him because I’m afraid he is too ill for me to walk out on this marriage. I have support but sometimes I can hear the insanity and rage in my husband and he refuses to get help. I think he is willing to see a psychiatrist for medication but in the meantime I meditate and am recovering as I abstain from compulsive overeating which is my addiction. It’s good to express the sadness I feel because I don’t want to live this way. I’m staying for now. Any suggestions? I know I can leave but it’s difficult as he is I’ll.

November 16, 2017 - 7:14pm
EmpowHER Guest

Always blaming the husband. Some wifes are the bully of the couple and they too can resort to emotional, verbal and physical abuse

October 26, 2017 - 2:56am
(reply to Anonymous)

Oh my yes, you are so right, this is not limited to men. This area is a safe place for anyone to vent, share and connect, male or female. I'll share a poem written by a man I connected with, he wrote this regarding his soon-to-be-exwife, I think it's marvelous!

You can crush my soul,
You can burn my desire,
You can have all control,
Go ahead call me a lair;
You can hurt my heart,
You can cause me pain,
You can tear me apart,
Go ahead do it again;
You won’t keep my silence,
You can’t break my will,
You are nothing but fear and violence,
Go ahead and try to kill;
You’re the victim now,
You’ve doing nothing you see,
You haven’t won, no how,
Forever I’m always me.

October 26, 2017 - 1:21pm
EmpowHER Guest

This is my story for the past 7years and it takes a toll on you you try your best to keep things all together when inside your falling apart in more ways than one ive left 7 times and have been back with my husband for the past 6 or 7 months started my own buisiness on my hubbies schedule just to keep the peace and still be able to give to others and help others and to keep my sanity .Its a up n down slope all the time lately its control of where Im going and where and with who and gas for the one car after or if ill get the car at all .Ive been given vehicles but my hubby will drive them and wreck them in some way so were down to one car and its taking a toll on me .Everyone feels my hubby is a deterance and his control over me is so hard this time to walk away I feel trapped his parents want me to stay because im good for him but there son is so controlling and ive prayed for deliverance ive done everything I can but its never enough or good enough

October 10, 2017 - 5:21am
(reply to Anonymous)

You are so right, this does take a toll on you and it yes, it makes you feel trapped but you have more power than you know. Sounds like it's time to leave the cycle of control and abuse once and for all. You've done it before so you know you can do it, it's time to get your peace back. Of COURSE his parents want you to stay, you are taking care of him and that is their concern = but it's not your job to give up your life and happiness for him or them or anyone else for that matter. Once you stop the madness you will realize how much you have been managing and can put some of this time back into taking good care of you. Stay strong, you've got this and we've got you - we are all here together, sending you a big hug.

October 11, 2017 - 11:11am
EmpowHER Guest
Anonymous (reply to kimromancorle)

Ty so much Im planning a safety plan as we speak what makes it hard is hes doing the honeymoon side as we speak to .Im keeping the peace and being careful .Im so exhausted ty for the hugs they always help.Im scared and feeling so tired.Its so draining

October 13, 2017 - 4:03am
(reply to Anonymous)

Hi. Did you ever get out? What is a safety plan? I'm desperate. I want to leave my husband so badly but dont know how! If i tried to pack im afraid of what he will do. Any advice is helpful.

December 8, 2017 - 3:11am
(reply to Anonymous)

You are in a cycle - first there is the honeymoon period where everything is fine, then tension builds and things get 'prickly' and then there is an incident and eruption. And then there is calm and it's back to the honeymoon phase. This doesn't go away and usually shortens in time so you are SMART to get going. I know you are tired, it IS exhausting but stay the path, you are doing great! I can send you some added resources if it would help, email me at kimromancorle@me.com. And stay safe, that is the most important thing to focus on is keeping you safe, sending you HUGS:)))

October 13, 2017 - 4:48am
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