My heart is heavy, and I am sad. I am on the verge of tears, what seems like all the time. The loss of a loved one is something everyone has to deal with at some point in their life, and most likely multiple times. It is not easy for anyone to get past the sorrow they experience when someone close to them has passed, or is about to die.
While my loss hasn’t happened yet, I’m preparing myself, and grieving in advance because I know it’s coming. Our loss is happening this week, as one of our family pets was diagnosed with malignant melanoma three weeks ago. I work from home, so I literally have watched our beloved Rottweiler/Labrador-mixed dog, Kona, deteriorate from a 90lb., tennis ball-in-mouth constant companion, to his current state at nearly 60lb., miserable, and cancer-ridden. His transformation began earlier this year, and we were oblivious. Life moves fast with two young boys. It’s hard to not feel guilty for not noticing sooner. We knew at 10 ½ years old he was aging, but never expected something like this.
We have our veterinarian coming to our house on Wednesday morning to perform the euthanasia procedure. I had no idea they would do that until a friend mentioned she had heard of it, so I asked. I hope it will be a more humane experience than carrying our sick pet to the vet's office and placing him on an operating table. I am nervous still, I have never had to do this before.
It was always Mom & Dad’s job to take care of the sick pets. As an adult and a mom, this is the hardest part of being a responsible one, knowing when to say goodbye and let your “child” go. Similarly, it breaks your heart to see one of your family in pain, regardless of if it's human or furry. It can bring the rest of your family closer together, it does not make the actual happening any easier.
My mind tells me, “It’s a dog, why are you so emotional?” But according to a MedicineNet.com article on grief, loss and bereavement, “When considering the loss of a loved one, the effects of losing a pet should not be minimized.” It goes on to say how pets often, and in our case, are considered a true part of the family.