Being pregnant affects your life in many ways but before you actually have the baby, your time is still your own. Especially if you are pregnant with your first baby, you have the freedom to nap when you need to, take time out to rest and spend your day as you normally would. I can remember the exact moment with my first son when I realized that I would almost never be alone again.
I was about 6 months pregnant with my first son and I was at the dentist. I was making my future 6 month appointment when I realized that I could make it for any time and any day. I would not have to worry about scheduling it around work meetings because I would be on maternity leave. Then it hit me, that baby would be with me ALL THE TIME. Every place I would go, he would go. I would never be without him. Not at the dentist. Not at the spa. Not at the grocery store. As I left the dentist office, my legs felt as if they could not support the weight of my body as I walked to my car. My head was spinning and the open sky above me seemed to be dropping closer to the ground. The feeling of being crushed was leaving me short of breath.
Was I surprised about this fact? I shouldn’t have been. Surely, I must have known the responsibility involved before I lovingly began to start a family with my husband. But still, that was the moment that it hit me that the life that I was used to, was definitely going to change.
Fast forward to 6 years later. I am rushing around the house trying to pack my bags, find my keys and go through the mental list in my head of all the things that I will need for the morning, all as I balance an 8 month old on my hip. I have carefully placed five bags near the door to the garage. The diaper bag, my gym bag, two backpacks and a lunch box. It is 8:20 and amazingly, we are on time. I have been up since before 5:00am and in that time I have fed and dressed myself and three children, made two lunches and coffee, unloaded and reloaded the dishwasher, threw a load of laundry in the wash, and packed four bags with school work, baby essentials and what I need for the gym.