I guess I do need some support.. Last night my Mom passed and I don't think I can handle it my heart feels like it has been torn from my chest..
Up until a month ago she was doing fine until a cold brought her to the hospital where they found she had secondary liver cancer. I am so not a nurse and I was extremely frightened of death and being around death . I did not know how I was going to deal with her passing. I thought what a horrible daughter, not being there when she needed me most. I prayed and prayed for her and asked for the strength to be there for her in her final moments.
I have no idea how, but I was with her and saw her slip peacefully to a new beginning, but grieving sucks and being alone at this time is even worse.
My children are so far away it's impossible for them to get home and I really do understand that.
My sisters are so busy fighting over what is to be done I just feel like running away, they were not with Mom in the end and I hope they do not regret it later..
I found the strength for my Mom but I am not sure if I can muster it and get through the pain I am feeling in my heart..
Sorry to ramble on so..
Debbie