Today is Thursday. I believe last time I wrote I had just returned from Newport and checked into CTCA. They found I had an issue with the steriod levels in my body and I was released mid week. My sister Kathy and her husband Jan were here for a couple of days to help out, but had to leave this morning to head back to UT for work. I was bummed they couldn’t stay longer. I feel like I haven’t seen my family in a long time.
Today, I had the most horrible stomach pains so I called my care manager and she recommended I check back into CTCA. I just wanted to cry. I am sick of being sick. I am frustrated that I can’t feel normal just for one day. I am constantly on edge and watchful of signs that would lead me back to the hospital. For some reason I felt emotional, more so than most days.
I was thinking about my visit with another CTCA patient, Kim, who has colon cancer. Last time I was an inpatient I went to introduce myself. She is 29 years old and married with a child. We exchanged stories and cried together. Her family was very supportive and said a prayer for us. I felt compelled to give Kim my “Spirited Warrior” bracelet that I had on. I explained to her the meaning and that she can call on her spirited warrior when she is in need. I know I do. I think Kim is still an inpatient here at CTCA so I will try to stop by tomorrow.
Kim has a blog too: http://kimfightscancer.blogspot.com/. If you get a chance, check out her site and keep her in your prayers.
I finally got the shipment of the Spirited Warrior jewerly! It turned out beautiful. The site is pretty much finished as well. We will most likely go live early next week.
The T-shirts, water bottles and hats will take a little longer to ship, but when the site is live you will still be able to order online.
Link to blog: http://themelissawaller.wordpress.com/2009/07/30/back-at-ctca/