Another night of little rest…maybe because we went to bed too early and I took several naps today. I have been having a hard time staying asleep during the night. It’s really annoying.
I have been nauseous again the past couple of days. It is the strangest thing. I was feeling great during the time that Christine was here. We were running errands all around town and I was walking everywhere. Then Tuesday I started feeling a little sick when I dropped her off at the airport. Today I felt sick again and even threw up mid morning. This is the first time that I have actually thrown up since the first round of Taxotere. I’m not sure why all of the sudden I am feeling sick again. I thought at first it was because I ran out of the patches that go behind the ear to help with motion sickness. I was able to pick them up at CTCA yesterday and started wearing it immediately…I haven’t noticed any drastic change. I have also been wearing the sea-bands that go on the wrist, as well as taking Zofran (anti-nausea medicine). I guess at least this time I feel like it’s worth something. Now I know it is because the chemo is super toxic and it is killing the cancer cells! This taxotere is some nasty stuff though. I can’t wait to be done with chemo someday. It is just so rough! Sometimes I feel like the side effects are not manageable. They certainly have affected my lifestyle. I feel restricted sometimes by the chemo because I never know what to expect and how I am going to feel. Everyday is a gamble. Even sometimes the day of, I feel different hour by hour. It makes it super difficult to plan anything.
I spent a good amount of time on the phone tonight talking with my friend in Chicago, Sean Kelly. It was good catching up with him. I miss hanging out with him sometimes. We have always gotten along and had some good times being each others “back up dates”. I can’t believe I still have yet to go to Chicago! I am hoping maybe this spring I can make it out there. It sounds like a blast and I have several girlfriends that are actually from Chicago that I know would love to go back and show me around. Of course, this is all IF I can make it on the plane by next year. I still have yet to travel by air. I have only been out of town twice this entire year and both times we drove. I am definitely starting to feel a little landlocked and batty from not being able to travel as frequently as I would like. I am just praying that I feel better soon and long enough to take a couple of days and get out of town. There are so many places I really want to go. We still are planning on going to New Zealand early next year. I would love to go to France and Spain sometime soon. I was thinking these may be a great alternative to the “beach vacation."