I'm 22 yrs old and just got married few months ago. He doesn't want me anymore. I feel like He lost attractive to me. The only way to confront him to intimate with me is give him BJ ( sorry if i give u guys too much info ) He makes me feel bad about myself. I lost all my confidence. I'm 5"6 & 115lbs. I go to gym 5 days a week. I take care myself very well. I get my hair and my nail done every forthnight. I do everything I can to make myself look good for him.
I asked him whats went wrong? why I feel like he doesn't want me? He said he loves me & still attractive to me. And he also said we are marriage couple already , sex doesnt exist! plus he getting old. I was like "are you crazy? you're just 26!!!" then he turned his back to me & fall asleep. me? cried myself to sleep hugging the pillow & dream of him....I wish I could fall asleep hugging him & dream of my pillow instead.
I cried day & night. but I cant cried in front of him. He got pissed off everytime and said If I have to come home after work to see this , I wish I can go back to work.
This is really hurting me. I stop eating, trying to stave myself, become fashion obsessed just because want to impress my husband who doesn't want me. I lost my sleep , lost my smile & lost hope.
what shold I do??