Only a few more days until I leave for New Zealand! I can’t believe this is finally happening. I don’t think it has hit me yet and it probably won’t until I am on the plane. My brother-in-law is here visiting with a couple of his friends. They are in town for a week for spring training. I was nervous about leaving the cats for so long, so it actually works out perfect that they are here and staying at my place while I’m gone.
I had to go to Cancer Treatment Centers of America for my weekly infusion today. I spoke with the doctors and had my bloodwork checked out. Everything looks good for now. I was supposed to go out tonight for Cathy’s birthday, but I was so exhausted from the infusion I ended up staying home. It always knocks me out! I think it’s that IV benedryl that they give me that hits me so hard. It’s actually nice because I actually go into a deep sleep for an hour during the infusion.
I talked to Steve, the mind, body, spirit doctor about some of my worries. He thinks that it would be good for me to maybe get involved with some charity work or something. I agree with him. I am usually involved in some sort of non profit, but I haven’t been in the past year or so. It has been difficult for me to commit to much, especially last year when things were so up in the air. Lately, I have just been feeling tired more than anything. I’m not sure if it’s just because I don’t have enough stress in my life or because I really am tired. Either way, I have been sleeping alot.
My schedule is still a little out of whack, but at least I have been sleeping more than I was a few months ago. I am hoping that this trip shakes me up a bit. I need a break from my routine here and a change in perspective on everything. I have been feeling a little uneasy lately and I hate feeling this way. I know I can’t control my health, but I wish that I could just have some sort of peace of mind.
My back has been hurting a bit lately. I think I did something to it, nothing major but it definitely is noticeable when I am using certain muscles. I just want to be sure not to aggravate it. The last thing I need right now is another broken vertebrae. I am nervous about this next Positron Emission Tomography (PET) scan because I have been feeling more pain than I was a few months ago. I am just preying that it’s nothing.
For those of you that are reading this now, please say a prayer for me that my next PET scan goes well and the cancer is still shrinking. I really don’t want to have to go back on chemotherapy!