I'm 22 but act really young (i dont know whether its to do with having adhd)
But I have been with my 29 yr old boyfriend for two years and he loves me but says sometimes its hard as it feels like he's with a kid.when we argue i cant argue like an adult,i just get annoyed with what he says, I get sarcastic and roll my eyes and just act stupid .I understand as he says he is a man nearly 30 and he needs a woman, but i have low self esteem, i always think other women are better than me and that he would rather go out with them because they are mature, and confident. I even walk down the street trying to hold my head high but when people walk past me i look down or away as I dont want to make eye contact.I don't understand why I'm not confident, he says i'm beautiful and i know i am not ugly, but I still have very low confidence.
Even when things are fine, i do stupid things like dances, stupid voices and stuff i constantly crave his attention and get grumpy and paranoid when i dont get it.
I wish i was really mature i dont know how to be, i'm scared he will leave me for a mature woman then i will be devastated and dont know how i will cope.