we're married for almost 4 years now. no kids yet and we're not taking any contraceptives. i want kids but he's not ready yet and he said that financially we are not stable yet. i dot believe we are stable now jsut i guess he's not ready yet for any responsibility tho. but he really loves kids. (although we didn't have a check-up thow whether it's me or it's him that's the problem)
anyways, 2 weeks ago, my hsuband told me that he doesn't love me anymore and he wanst to be free and likes to be with his friends, get home anytime he likes and to enjoy being free again. i admit that im a controlling freak and tend to have embarassing tantrums (like throwing things and like even disrespecting him in front of friends and family like if he's not going on the way i want i would shout at his face then would have a bad mood on the way) i know i've been to childish and spoiled but he told friends that he's the one making me spoiled. i thought it's with him tho because i know he loves me so much and that always after my tantrums, he would make fun of me and everytime he'll see someone on tv doing my tantrums, he would jokingly said, i think i know someone doing the same..
he used to love me so much, breakfast in bed, flowers, made garden for me, and even stitch my favorite pillow and even some shirts that's big enought for me and i want is smaller.
he's the perfect husband and i just ruined it all. he told me he's fed-up of me and that he just hates me now. he said i can just stay at his house like a house-maid but he swears in Jesus name that he'll stop any connection between me and him. i begged, kneeled and cried in front of him and while his away. he said nothing can ever change the fact that enough is enough and that i didn't change. he said no third party is involve just he woke up that he can't handle anymore dramas in life..
i know no one will undertand me more than he did. i know no one will love me more than he loved me. he really do loved me. i felt tho that he's just giving me lesson coz he's searching for new appartment but he's telling me about it and that as if we are still togehter. he's just telling me about the apprtment but he's not asking for my opinion (which is not his type-for always i decide things in the house)
he said he found new appartment for US and that he likes it and that we will transfer right after some renovations made.. 2 weeks ago, he said that he can't live with me anymore and that i can just live a this house so that i can stand on my feet and live on my own. then why he's searchng for new place for us if he wants me to stay away from him.. i asked for another chance but he said he gave so many chances but still im the same and didn't change. pls help. i really love him and i dont know how can i live without him in my life. i just miss to hug him and kiss him but he's not even sitting on the same room with me. he's sleeping on the other room sometimes on the sofa and sometimes not going home at all which is soo not him bec he's really afraid from me but now as if he's so serious and and he's stikcing with his decision that no chances and better for us to be apart.. help?