Hi all, I am A 37yr olf women who suffers from anxiety disorder.. I realized in October 09 that I was pregnant...My partner and I were very happy and excited with the idea. A few days later after finding out, I couldnt sleep, was having nightmares..was extremely irritable, with a very short fuse..a few days went by like this..and then I started feeling extremely isolated and depressed, my anxiety went through the roof, I started worrying I had aids....I worried myself sick..I was having alot of attacks.. I started even thinking about killing myself..the sound of a crying baby was enough to make me leave a department store because it was making me crazy...this is when I knew something was wrong.. very wrong...and that scared me even more..I was in distress bigtime.. and came to the conclusion that I was not prepared to go through this right now as my Mother was losing her fight with cancer....I terminated at 4weeks.
Right after, I felt alot better, the crazy thoughts went away, the irritability has settled down.. I still find that I can go from 0-10 alot quicker then ever...I am usually a patient person and have never felt this way before. After my mother passed in Jan 2010, I felt alot of anxiety go away.. I am currently on 10 mgs of ecitalopram and really want to start a family.. I am just so scared!!! My Dr says she believes I suffered from post partum in early pregnancy?? but I didnt know this was even possible? All I know is that if thats whats in store for me I am scared for my own life.. I still notice that around my period I am much more irritable then I ever was before..that symptom has seemed to remain.. ..so I dont know if I have PMS now? or PMDD? and I guess I am just hoping that someone out there has gone through something similar and can offer me some hope ....Thanks so much for listening.