Well im 17 , my boyfriend is 21 , we live in a Muslim community , so a non virgin is regarded in a bad way. My mom knows that im dating him and she knows im crazy about him however if ever i do it with him i would never ever be able to tell her about it. I really dont know what to do .He is very sweet , caring , and takes good care of me , he treats me well . Each time i broke up ( 2wice in 4months ) he insisted tat we should go back. We arleady spoke about mariage and according to what he says he will last forever if i listen to him and if it works between usI kind of want to have sex with him its the first time that i feel the need to have sex with him and its freaky . With my last boyfriend i stayyed with him onger like 9months , but i never wanted to do it or go far with him . I didnt leave him touch me me the way this one does.He said he wants to do it but until he is sure it will last forever , how ever he loves blowjobs and I HATE THEM ... i prefer having sex than giving hima blowjob , how ever i dont know what to do or say , cause wheenever i bring up this subject he tells me we should wait till we are sure it will last forever. I dont want to give him blowjobs but i dont like saying no to him. what shall i do ? am i ready to make him have sex ? shall i make him ? IM SO CONFUSED please help ? Thank you very much AND oh yeah , i nearly forgot , hes from the same city as me his parensts and his siter live here how ever he goes to university in FRANCE which is far away from me , but hes here every single vacations , and when he goes to frannce we are always skyping and hes helping me out with homework and stuff like that , he rarly goes out or shall i say never , unless hes back here and when he does most of the time im with him.
THank you once again.