I have had an eating disorder for over 6 years, in varying degrees but I've always been on a very calorie restricted diet, at the worst around 100 calories a day. Over the past six months I have very slightly increased my calorie intake, however, still never more than 600-700 calories. Yet, I am GAINING. Ive stabilized, however, am extremely uncomfortable with my weight and would like to lose at least 10 of the lbs I have put on. I am not underweight, but my body composition has more fat in it than ever before despite my low intake and consistent working out. Would increasing my diet to 1000-1200 calories a day actually enable my metabolism to burn calories and fat and cause me to FINALLY lose the weight I want to? I know that when I had lost weight before from the restriction because my body was in shock from the lack of calories, but now that it has adjusted and gone into "starvation" mode it is holding on to every ounce I eat. However, I know that I cannot handle gaining more weight if that is what will happen when I increase my calories...is it possible to eat more without gaining and then to actually eat MORE in order to LOSE? I'm terrified. Most people would rejoice at being told to eat more to lose weight but I just am so scared....
thank you :)