Hi. I've noticed of late that I am becoming increasingly moody. My moods go from elation to sad within seconds. I have a lovely house, 2 cats and a boyfriend who is very childlike but I know he loves me and yet my sex drive has disappeared and I hate the way I look and dress more and more. I have had, over the last year, really painful period pains and am wondering if maybe there is something wrong there, that is causing a hormonal imbalance. I don't want to go to the doctor and be a drama queen though, without just cause. I'm only 23 and think it would be normal to be care-free and enjoying life, yet I'm overthrown with sadness, anxiety and anger. I get bloated at 3pm most days and my bowel movements are irregular as well as my periods. I am wondering if people are truly happy or just tricked into thinking they are when they see what they've achieved or what they own. I also only see myself with my boyfriend and have no urges to meet someone else but wonder how people can promise themselves to one person for the rest of their lives...they say 'you just know' but how do you 'just know', what does that feel like? Maybe I'm just a pessimist. I don't want want to die as I know that will hurt the people I love, and the people who love me but am I alone in saying that if there were a way to have never existed, I would take it? I lost my job in September, and struggled to get a new one until June this year, maybe that started things off as I was penniless and worried about losing my house. Now I don't even know if I want my own house. I'm thinking its a waste of time and money. I used to think it was a good thing, getting on the property ladder but now the market is so dyer, maybe the effort has been wasted. Maybe I just need someone to talk to. Who knows? I'm hoping you can advise me! Where do I start? What do I look at changing?
Thanks for your time anyway.
jl1210