Hello, I am 24 years old female and a virgin. I have a question, have posted the same question somewhere on someone's else question but didn't get a response so thought of posting my own question again.
Me and my boyfriend are dating for a long time, but we never went for an intercourse ever because of me being scared of the pain I'll be going through during the intercourse, as I was always been told it's painful. My boyfriend was quite aware that I am scared of it and he always used to make me feel better. Yesterday, we just experienced it without planning. But the situation is quite different here, he put his penis on my vagina and tried to push it, me being a virgin, it was hurting me alot and everytime either I screamed or pushed him back. Then he used to pause for a few minutes, pat me on my back and talk to me for sometime. Then again we tried, it hurted me again, maybe because of the hymen coming on it's way. On the 3rd try, I screamed and actually cried then he stopped. I ejaculated him with my hand later. After an hour or so, I experienced a severe backache and feel I cant walk properly. I told him this, he asked to examine it, and said the hymen must have damaged probably. He successfully was able to put the tip of his penis an inch or half inside my vagina. Moreover, it hurted me badly when he used his finger too, and i pushed him back, why is that? i was lubricated well and all aroused, why was it hurting me so much? why was it so hard for him to enter me? am i normal? I later examined with a mirror, I couldn't see any hymen around my vagina. This is sure that I am not a virgin anymore, also is backache normal after going through all these?
Thanks.