I was diagnosed at 13 after a violent fight at school. I was in juvie and then sent to a hospital from there I went to and RTC.. I have been on almost everything with the exception of the recent drugs. I used be a cutter and I had issues with eating and drugs.. I got pregnant when I was 17 and then again at 18.. I am now 21 and not on any meds except for anxiety and sleeping meds. I choose not to take them because of how sedating they are. I also can't deal with the weight gain. My moods switch often and I'm paraniod a lot. I have issues with "losing control of the situation" I often feel edgy and anxious... its hard to deal with anything in life like making and showing up to appts.. iv become obsessed with my weight but I haven't had any violent outburst since I was about 18 but I still have anger problems. I'm in a relationship and its hard on him I know, because I'm very controlling and paranoid, but I am very scared of medication.. I just hope that I can find my way and that I'm not alone. :):(