Hi EmpowHER
I'd really like some advice related to my first sexual encounter which didn't go anything like I expected, and I don't know what to do now.
I have been friendly with a neighbor of mine who I go to school with for a number of years. We've been just friends and nothing more until a few days ago when his parents were away and he invited me around his house.
We watched a romantic movie together and then the talk moved on to our own sexual relationships. It turned out that like me, he too had never had any sexual encounters as he said he was waiting for the right girl. He then said that he had liked me for some time but only just plucked up the courage to ask me around to his house. One thing led to another and we ended up kissing. He kept on telling me how he really liked me and removed his clothing so that he was naked from the waist down. He had an erection and I was very nervous about what I should do. He said that he found it such a turn on for me to be looking at him in such an aroused state, and we just sat with one arm around each other which was nice, with me looking at his erection. He carried on talking about how much of a turn on it was for me to be clothed and seeing him in such an aroused state, and that's when the problems started...
His breathing started getting more and more heavy, and then as though it had a life of its own, his penis started throbbing and twitching heavily before he ejaculated right before my eyes without any assistance whatsoever! I just sat back and watched the fireworks in amazement!
Through a combination of surprise, awe and the situation I was in, I couldn't control myself and burst into laughter. He got up, put his clothing back on and said that it would be best if I left. I didn't know what to do or say and so I left him alone.
I felt bad about myself for my reaction. In no way was I laughing at him. It was the first time I had a close look at an erect penis, and for it then to start bobbing about on it's own while ejaculating was too much for me to control myself. I really enjoyed my time with him that evening and would like to see him again, but he doesn't even make eye contact with me anymore.
I'd really appreciate some advice on how to get over what happened.
How could I now approach him, and even if I did end up speaking to him how is it best to deal with the awkwardness of what happened?
I have felt bad about myself because of the way I reacted. Is it just me or would other girls have done the same?
I'd really appreciate your help as I can't stop thinking about it!