I choked on July 16, 2011. A young boy saved my life by calling 911. I was unconscience for four days. My living will said to pull the plug after a week. I'm sure my subconcious knew that. I now have short-term memory loss. I was a high functioning assistant manager at a grocery store. Here it is Spetember 08, 2011, it has almost been 2 months since my accident. I have also lost a lot of the past couple years or so. I have pieces of my memories, flashes. Numbers were my thing and now I can't remember dates, not like I used to. I remembered the date of every important or significant event in my life. Now I barely know who the woman in the mirror is with the grey hair. I catch myself drinking and eating things I gave up prior to my accident. I gave up gluten, caffeine and dairy. Oddly I remember I gave these up and put them down, but I can barely find my way to town in my car. We moved a few months ago into a nice house and it is a struggle getting home. My disabality pay was approved. So I at least I have that for my family. My family is being torn apart. My son left the other day to go to Germany with his father for a year. My daughter is in high-school and struggling to become a woman. My boyfriend of many years is torn between a life with me and dealing with my issues and his mother who is old and ill and his neices who are in another state. I know he loves me, but is that enough?
It is so strange to be lost in my own head. To not remember the things I do, the things I say.