When I was born my mother said I was a good kid, nothing wrong with me. At the age of 3 she said that I would be crying, laying down and throwing up all day long sometimes for days at a time. Now looking back, I do remember my mother making me lay on the couch with a heating pad under my head and a bucket so I could throw up. They thought that I was just having really bad headaches and the doctors said I would grow out of them as I aged. Now at nearly 25 years old, every doctor that I have visited said that I have chronic migraines and that I will have to just deal with them. I have taken more excedrin in my life time to fill about 20 people's life times. My stomach is in pure knots at all times and I am very surprised I am not pooping blood by now. I have two children, 1 and 2 years old. My husband will watch them while I am upstairs in bed - for hours, days and once - a whole week. Honestly, I don't remember one day that I have not had a headache. Yes, I know the difference between a normal headache and a migraine. The normal headaches are those of relief! The migraines are those that keep me from eating, sleeping, showering, taking care of my kids, walking, driving, ANYTHING. The doctors around here look at me like a damn medicine addict which I am not. I do not ask for meds I ask for help. What I get is a shot of demerol in the butt..I hate it! It only lasts for a couple hours anyways! My husband looks at me like I am making them up because I get them so much now! My kids look at me like 'who are you?' I am pathetically asking for help from anyone! Kids around here have ruined anything for me..doctors do not give out pain meds to people under a certain age because they think they want to get high? How the hell do you get high off of a pill other than like ectasy? I don't get it..these headaches have taken me to the point of suicide! I have felt like downing a whole bottle of excedrin so many times. My head feels like it is going to explode, as if my eyes are about to pop from my sockets! How can someone put up with this for their entire life? I can't. I'm going crazy! It feels like I can hardly think anymore, like these headaches are eating my brain. If someone asks me a question really fast such as 'whens your childs bday?' I literally have to sit there and think about it. I can hardly function anymore. I need help with my stupid head. I honestly want to see my kids grow up - have babies of their own. I don't want to be a prisoner stricken to my bed.