I don't know what is the matter with me. Well I do I just don't want to admit it's a problem. I obsess about food healthy food. I will not eat anything unless it's healthy. Fruits, veggies, egg whites, nondairy, no bread at all. I live on protein shakes since I hardly eat meat once a week. I eat only white fish. Because I am scared of gaining weight. Lately all I've been eating is protien shakes and not anything else. I am so scared of gaining weight. I want to lose weight at least 23 pounds. I weigh myself everyday and measure all my food out when I do eat. Which is really small amounts. I walk a mile a day everyday whether it's raining or snowing. I know I don't get enough nutrition. And I know I need help. I know this isn't normal behavior to be completely obsessed over every aspect of what you eat. I am also obsessed over my body image I really can't stand to see myself in the mirror and think to myself "your fat you need to lose more weight". I just need help in eating healthy without fear and get my OCD about my weight loss under control. But where should I go? What should I do? Get help? Or resolve it on my own?