Hello , Fellow people The reason Im writing is because I've always been an active exxtrovert person, but i happen to have mood swings all the time in my life. And what i mean by mood swings is that i have thoughts of myself doubting if this is the life i want to have, i have strong desires to be alone at random moments i dont even want to be around my fiancee, nor any family members, but then i feel so alone i want someone to be there with me. Its the strangest thing, I never went to any doctors or took any medicationns but now im writing about it because theres people i could possibly hurt by this. and i have hurt people by my mad and random decisions which i then end up regreting later... i dont whats wrong. would i have tormented personality? i really dont understand myself sometimes ive been through everything! I just arrived home with my parents after being away from them 2 years . and all this isnt just setting in right i think. Im perfectly fine one moment the next.... i dotn wanna know anything about any living person. just alone. and think .. thoughts about what am i thinking? kind of thing.... its one moment about my future and kids with my future husband and the other is ... i dont want to be with him and i dont want kids. and i just want to be left alone. im afraid one day i might tell him and ruin my hole life... soemone please tell me something....
Thank you.