We started started dating in 2011 I first found gay porn on his phone and since then it's been nonstop. When I firt found it he was blaming it on add pop ups and when I'd find things on his laptop he said it was his brother or roommate because he let them use it. Very consistent and only ever gay pron, I have never found woman at all. He Doesn't touch my unless I bring it up then he'll make an effort to. He doesn't like to like me, claims 'im not clean' or his 'tounge gets tired'. I practically have to beg for him to touch me in that way. I've found it more recently and actually brought it up to him.. It didn't go that well for he finally admitted yes it turns him on but he couldn't tell me in what way but just assured me that he doesn't want to do anything physical or want to be with a man. Though he did say he did try something physical with someone but won't tell me anything at all. When we first met he was very distant and very stand offish. I made foolish mistakes and cheated on him and he feels justified to not have to tell me anything because I haven't told him everything about what happened at that time.. Being engaged and still only 21 this is a hard decision.. I want to work things out I mean he is my best friend. I feel I'm maybe not in love with him anymore because I feel so hurt and disturbed from what I've always found. I care about him so much that I want to move forward and be in love with him again. He is very feminine for a guy in general. Claims he had a 'disorder' with his appearance that's why he's always in the mirror. I don't believe it's normal for anyone in general to go through a bottle a hair spray in less then a week. I appreciate any and all advice.. Please and thank you