I constantly feel like a fearful child inside. Decision making is virtually impossible so I just go with the flow and hateyself for it. I try and have some control of what I do by taking different jobs which forces me to get out of the house and interact with different people but at the end of the day. I still stay the same. It doesn't help when coming home. I have a hard working partner who shows he cares by the things he does. But the flip side he doesn't talk much unless prompted by questions. Critisises and is verbally abusive. Making sure the kids can hear. They in turn repeat some of the things he sais so I try and stay quiet but that's not living when u can't have a say in your child's upbringing without being put down. Please feel free to probe coz I want to stop this constant plea for help. It's wearing me out!