I am on Paxil 20 mg, cymbal tea 60mg, seroquell 200 mg and adderal 10mg. I'm type 1 diabetic suffering from diabetic neuropathy, degenerative disc disease and just diagnosed with colonic inertia and they want to remove my colon. I've lost my best friend, father in law, my job, moved, filed for bankruptcy all within one year. I feel helpless and very discouraged. I have no fight left. I have one on one therapy each week and it's all I can do to get there. The depression has become enveloping. At times I can't even speak to my newlywed husband from my lows. Idk what to do. They raise the anti depressants but I feel more down. I don't even cry