My husband filed for divorce yesterday after I filed a restraining order. His emotional and verbal abuse stems from alcohol and over the counter allergy meds-like Benedryl. We've been married 17 years and although I have been angry with him for a long time, I haven't been perfect either, even seeking emotional and physical support from another man, which I regret every day. We've never sought counseling and I wonder if we should before terminating the marriage. I could use some help myself and I know it takes two to sink this ship. I feel desperate to have him back (I can't talk to him because of the PPO) and confused by all the feedback I'm getting from everyone.