My husband of 20 years has been home and disabled for the past 9 years due to ME/CFS. We have 2 teenage children. I feel guilty because I Do not know or want to live in this situation because it is making me so unhappy. For years, every conversation was about his illness. I already suffer from anxiety/depression and feel I am fighting a sinking ship all the time. My husband tells me to live my life and that I should be grateful for my health. I do live my life but I am lonely. We do not socialize or even do anything interesting together. I had two sisters who died from ALS years ago. He reminds me how would they feel if their husband left them while they were ill. I think that is an unfair but true statement. It breaks my heart but do not feel a connection. Does anyone have ideas to help me? Am I just completely selfish? Anyone have similar situations ? Thanks.