Hi good day, for years now I haven't been 100% well I get ill easy I'm mostly in my room I sleep late most days, I don't always eat especially on mornings, I don't really exercise, I'm not on vitamins, I am on birth control, I mostly take on things, I live a fearful life because of my thoughts, I always study about how my life will be in the future, everytime i feel ill i always google my symptoms and I does feel worst, I don't really have much friends, I do go out and I do work part time and i take classes but other than that I'm always just in my room, I don't even really talk to my family, I cry almost every night just i take on a lot, I always feel sick when i eat snacks, I mostly feel ill will i wake up on mornings but i feel a little better during the day then i just feel lil again, when i have sex I always feel like I caught some std or something but I always use protection (male condoms) (birth control) , sometimes i feel weak and ill after having sex then i will always google my symptoms, there was a time i had sex and the condom slipped but not off his penis like halfway but he pulled it up and we continued i got tested a month after it was negitive he was my bf at the time but didn't know his status, i always think back at times and wonder if i caught hiv or something then i would always search it up trying to get peice of mind but all i do is feel worst, i experience a lot of mood swings very slight not everyday headaches, i feel like my eyes blur somethings from spacing out too much, am i depressed? Suffering with anxiety or Am i really ill? I take my check ups ones in a while but never test for cancer yet sometimes i feel like i do eat cancer symptoms like unexplained belly pains even when my period isn't close, or hemorriods , or i use to have brown discharge but it's gone now, my discharge is clear so i guess its normal, I'm gaining weight instead of loosing though, my neck node swell sometime back but when i checked it out it was a throat infection i got treatment but one node didn't really go down as i can still feel it , I know its long to read but please take your time and tell me what it is am feeling or why I'm like this I will very much appreciate it honestly thank you.