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My name is Jannett and I am divorced. I have two wonderful boys 16 years apart. My ex-husband has been incarnated since my oldest was 6 years old, my other son is from my present relationship ( I have been with my boyfriend for 8 years). My ex-husband hurt me both emotionally, mentally, physcially. I along with oldest son have been through so much. My oldest son is my rock, my hero, my leader, my greatest accomplishment. After, my marriage was over, I build a shield around my heart. Even though I have been in a realtionship for the past 8 years, I still can not give my heart completely. I love this man so much, but can not give my self completely. I know I am not being fair to him, but my experience has been so bad. I give it all, and at the end I get hurt. I have a hard time letting go of the past, I believe that is way I can not give myself completely. I am so afraid to get married.

When, I was young my father would hit me, and I was molested by two of my brothers. After my marriage was over, I had that thinking that it is my way or the highway. Wrong way of thinking I know. But, little by little I am beginning to let my shield down. Another reason I do not want to get married is because and I am being honest here, I do not like my boyfriend kids. They are the most rudest, disrespectful kids I have ever known. I had done everything for them, and all I ever got was rudeness, and being disrespected. So, I basically gave up on being nice to them, and do not really speak to them. I am going to school to better myself and to show my kids that you are never to old to go back to school. My boys are my whole world. I am so in love with my boys, they are truly a blessing to me. Branden (my youngest) I never thought I could love anyone else besides my older son, but that totally changed. He is my pride and joy. I love him so much. I know I will never change my boys, in fact my boys have changed me. God has truly blessed me so much.