I think I am dying! At least that’s the way I feel. I haven’t been able to do anything except lay in bed and crawl to the kitchen to try to feed and hydrate myself.
I am still very nauseous. I don’t think I have ever been this nauseous before and it really sucks. Everytime I take a drink of something it comes up and I am running to the bathroom. It seems that at night it is a little better and I am usually able to get a little food down without throwing it back up.
I am so sick of watching tv and sitting in bed. My body feels tight and I just wish I could stretch it out. I am nervous that if this is how round 1 of taxotere is going down, then rounds 2-6 are going to be even worse…I don’t think I can handle it. It certainly isn’t a way of life. I am just praying that this nasty chemo is killing the cancer cells too. If I go through all of this and it doesn’t end up doing anything, I think I will be devastated.