When things are good they really are but trying to get them to outweight the bad is a struggle. I'm always blamed for everything going wrong and am expected to run to him in order to make things better. Me being upset about his remark prompted him to tell me that until I am willing to talk normally and not be upset he won't listen to me, an if there are any further arguments that I will not see him for dust. Today I have to uphold a facade in order to make sure he doesn't leave. All this instead of apologising to me and giving me a hug. It's threats all the time. How it's affecting him, and that when he does stuff when he gets made it's because I pushed him.
I am willing to take fair blame in life but anything and everything so far falls on my shoulders one way or another, it's morally degrading and I now feel like a bad person.
He'll never come to me and make up I always have to put in the effort. And he blasts it like an inconvenience or if I say sorry or I love you he retorts with 'no you're not' or 'no you don't.
I'm sorry for ranting but I have no friends (I've always been a recluse) and no family (we dont get on), so apart from people at work my only interaction is with my husband.
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When things are good they really are but trying to get them to outweight the bad is a struggle. I'm always blamed for everything going wrong and am expected to run to him in order to make things better. Me being upset about his remark prompted him to tell me that until I am willing to talk normally and not be upset he won't listen to me, an if there are any further arguments that I will not see him for dust. Today I have to uphold a facade in order to make sure he doesn't leave. All this instead of apologising to me and giving me a hug. It's threats all the time. How it's affecting him, and that when he does stuff when he gets made it's because I pushed him.
October 11, 2011 - 3:41amI am willing to take fair blame in life but anything and everything so far falls on my shoulders one way or another, it's morally degrading and I now feel like a bad person.
He'll never come to me and make up I always have to put in the effort. And he blasts it like an inconvenience or if I say sorry or I love you he retorts with 'no you're not' or 'no you don't.
I'm sorry for ranting but I have no friends (I've always been a recluse) and no family (we dont get on), so apart from people at work my only interaction is with my husband.
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