I was overweight before and at that time I ate everything I wanted-donuts, chips, fries, chocolate bars, ice cream-everything. It's been such a hard journey, but with a healthier diet and regular exercise, I've lost more than twenty pounds.
But at 106 pounds, I know I've still got a long way to go. I'm aiming for at least forty-five minutes of moderate exercise plus ten thousand steps a day, 1200 calories max, but I'm just not good enough for it. Some days I feel my muscles trembling; I just feel like collapsing on my bed and not trying. I'd hate myself because I know this is just psychological-I'm a student, not a construction worker, how can I be that tired? I'd know I'm just trying to excuse myself from exercising because I'm lazy. I'd look at the bread at home and end up eating a couple of slices, all the while hating my weak resolve. I'd cry thinking about the girls in school who could eat everything they want and not lift a finger and still be hot. I almost always end up eating about 1600 calories, sometimes more, and I'd just hate myself.
What could I do about this? I can't magically make myself taller (I'm a midget at 5'1) so that I'd have bigger caloric needs. I can't change my gender either (I'm a girl). I can't make my turtle-paced metabolism go faster. I have this abnormally insatiable appetite that just won't be satisfied by 1200 calories. Just thinking about the ten more pounds I have to lose makes me tired. I'm desperate for a solution. My deepest thanks to anyone who could help me.