im really sick of my life ;i dont wanna go to college (im a good student) but this problem is killing me and there is no solution found .For year now i have had a serious problem is that i feel that i cant hold my pee so i have to go the toilet like every hour, and my bladder is aching me , it burns and sometimes i feel so much pain in my kidneys and back.I went to the doctor to see if i had problem in my kidneys or i have diabetes(cause i use to drink a lot of water like 5L a day and i go to the toilet a lot and i have 2 people in my family who have diabetes) but he said that i was ok and i don't suffer from anything.I went to a psychiatrist and he told me that im stressed and scared and that cause that pain.At college when i feel that im gona pee my pants i get crazy and my heart start to beat so fast and i sweater ,i feel so afraid to pee,i feel embarased to go to the toilet in college , is so painful .I really don't know how to describe my feelings. Why im not normal ?i have my self and my life .I just cant think about anything in my life just about this problem that i cant get rude of it.Please if you have any solution please don't hesitate to help me .I tried some medicine(zoloft,normocardile) that the doctor gave it to me to increase that stress as he said but it doesn't help .
I did analysis and nothing was wrong about me.The cause is that im so scared.How can i stop this .Im so sick of my life i wish that i dosen't exist .I really can't live this way .I wish to die .