I don't really know if anyone can relate to this, but I am going to give it a go.
A while ago, my husband and I were having vaginal sex, and in the throes of it, he accidentally thrust very strongly into my behind. I was not warmed up back there, and I was dry, so the pain was EXCRUCIATING. I bled for two days. Ever since then, I am terrified of it happening again, to the point that I panic during sex and we have to stop. This experience has completely destroyed my enjoyment of sex and has pretty much put our sex life on hold.
I have been trying to find a product or a way to block off that area comfortably during sex, so that I can relax again and be sure that even if he misses again, he wont be able to penetrate. I haven't found anything helpful yet. I really have no idea what to do.
This had happened in the past a couple of times, but both times were when we were doing it in different positions that we have since avoided or done very rarely and carefully. But, this last time hurt the most, and it happened in a missionary position, which made me feel like nothing was safe.
I can only enjoy being on top now, since I am the one in control, but my husband can't come unless he is the one on top, so he is not satisfied, either.
I would really appreciate some advice. Thanks.