Our horse just turned 30, and has been diagnosed with a serious but not fatal condition called “Cushings Disease.” Because of that and his age, the vet told my wife, Chris, that she shouldn’t ride him any more. This was very upsetting to her, as she has loved this horse for many, many years and they have had many wonderful times together.
In telling a friend about this sad situation, she commented that this was a big loss for Chris and that she would probably go through a mourning process of sorts.
Mourning? No one died… how could this be?
My friend pointed out that there are many types of loss, and that the resulting toll it takes is similar no matter what was lost. Sure, when someone close to you dies that is obviously a considerable loss, but when you can no longer do something that you love to do, that is also a loss. And you feel it.
Loss, no matter what the cause or what was lost, is stressful. What I’ve found, though, is that it isn’t as stressful when you understand what it is that you are feeling and why.
For example, I recently found out that I have degenerative disc disease, which means that I have to be very careful how I lift things or I could seriously injure my back. I must do certain exercises regularly, and sleep a certain way. I have always been proud of my strength, and how I’ve been able to do the “manly” things around the house that needed to be done, such as lifting 75-pound barrels of horse manure into a trailer and then into our dumpster, changing the water bottle, etc. (I can still open difficult jars and bottles, though!)
I was feeling pretty sad and stressed about all of this when I realized that I am experiencing loss. I have lost that ability and confidence that came with my strength. I felt better knowing that; sometimes putting a label on something can help us to better understand it, and with understanding comes comfort and resolution.
Are you experiencing a loss that you haven’t recognized as such? Are there things you can no longer do that are upsetting you? Did your favorite restaurant go out of business? That’s a loss. Can you no longer hear as well as you used to? That, too, is a loss. Is your eyesight failing, or do you need reading glasses when you have never needed them before? Loss. Loss. Has a serious illness changed the relationship with your spouse or another loved one, and you can no longer do some of the things you used to enjoy together? BIG loss.
Recognize your loss and deal with it on those terms. You’ll feel better about it, I promise.
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