I am 23 now, I had sex with my boy friend in dec 2008,but he did not penetrate into me. later in january wen i took a test hpt on the day of my periods it was positive, I was shocked.I dint expect, since my sister wasn't married we decided to abort and had a abortion pill and then took a ultra sound which said that my uterus was clear.since then we did not meet for 6 months.later in august 2009 wen we met something took over us and we landed up together .but my boyfriend ejaculated a little on my pant.after which i was scared and took a ultra sound one month later and found i wasn't pregnant.the doctor adviced me to have birth control pills.which i dint take. I got my periods on sep 22nd so I was relaxed. but In sep again we were together but just had oral sex and slept close to each other which my boy friend assured will not cause any problem but i was scared again and took a hpt test on oct 18 which was negative on the very day i got my periods which was a bit heavier than normal continued for 5 days now its nov we werent so close this month but still I am scared as i have read of periods every month even wen one is pregnant. I am feeling like the periods i got in oct would have been implantation bleeding.is it possible. this month it is 10 I am feeling very hungry, urinating very frequently,a bit nauseaus but dint through up. does it indicate that i am pregnant.or is it because of my stress.hearing me crying my boy friend has assured not to meet me again until our marriage .he is very sure that i am worrying for nothing. but wen I make up my mind listening to him,the hpt which came positive in jan flashes into my mind and i start thinking that one day wen I land up knowing i am pregnant it will be too late. I am mentally disturbed , depressed. wat i should do, i am in need of counseling very badly.